5.11 Damage--Head, Heart, Hands Feb 1, 2004 0:26:14 GMT -5
Post by WinterDreamer on Feb 1, 2004 0:26:14 GMT -5
IMO Spike is truly terrified that Buffy will reject him, souled hero or no. That B/A kiss he witnessed did it for him. He died, IMO,
(1) because he did want to do what ever he could NOT to end the world. (Go back to Becoming II - He likes the world!)
(2) The act of existing had become too much for him. (Can we rest now, Buffy?) He was mentally and emotionally ready to die.
(3) By his death, Buffy could go on a live a normal life, and, by extension, so could Dawn.
If Buffy were to learn that he was alive, she might
(1) feel obligated to see him. Spike is proud. He doesn't want/won't accept charity - not even from Buffy. And, it still wouldn't return his love - as he loved her.
(2)not want to see him. This would also hurt him deeply. Very painful.
Therefore, why should he seek her out? why let her know? He'd just open himself to more pain. He'd rather be in the pain of wondering than the pain of knowing.
Spike knew by LMPTM, IMO, that Buffy would never love him as he loved her. By their meeting the day after Touched, talking in the kitchen, from the expression on his face, he knew she'd never return his love. He would be content just to be there with her, "being heroes".
I predict that by the end of the season, Spike will find himself and, if the series is renewed, (please PTB) next season he will find a new love. And the new love? will love him back....(I'm taking odds on this...since I am banking that SMG won't be back, that B/A is locked up in the thoughts of JW, DB, and SMG, JM, and the many fans of JM/Spike want Spike to have some happiness and lurve.)
Thanks for your kind words, makd--I always enjoy my time here, whether posting or just browsing!
I agree with all of the above, EXCEPT I'm not sure about Spike finding a new love quite so quickly. For one thing, love never lasts in the Jossverse, and I just am not ready to see Spike have to deal with the loss of a great love, again. When the show comes to an end, perhaps we could get to see the beginnings of something that we don't have to watch the end of, but I'm hoping that's some time away.